Moose's exile book

Note before you continue: Pages 13, 15, and 17 have been left out due to them being blank. -Management

Moose's exile book pages
In exile, Moose started a diary. Here are the pages. The transcript of said pages are beside the pages.

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If you found this, please DO NOT READ THIS.

This book contains a lot of information that I am not allowed to disclose as well as personal info.

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Multiple Lives:

According to the ghost, sometimes people can have more than one "life," meaning that they can come back from the dead. Of course, this way of death is different than what we experience. To lose a "life," you must be killed with intent. Page 3 of 19

The ghost only knew about one person who was like this, but now I think I know what happened to Gobby. Gobby was killed by Bread with intent, and he lost one of his "lives" and came back with his wounds not healed whatsoever. Gobby has more than one "life." Page 4 of 19

Maybe we all have more than one "life" and we just don't know it yet.

We will have to wait and see Page 5 of 19

I'm not human:

The ghost told me that they did not feel hatred toward me like they did with every other human. They said it might have to do with my soul, but I'm not really sure. I feel human. I was born to human parents. Maybe it has to do with me being cursed.

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Either way, I've been hearing my own voice above the other voices from the crystal. They share most of the same desires, but my voice wants more. To go a step further. I haven't figured out what I "want" exactly, but I guess I'll have to wait and see.

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I'm not human.

I can feel it.

I'm a monster...

A monster...

That's all I have been and all I'll ever be...

But why do I have "humanity"? Why do I care about others?

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Why should I care about others?

I'll only end up hurting them at some point.

I always will.

History will keep repeating itself.

There's only one way to break the cycle.

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But I don't know if I can do it.

My humanity is still hanging on telling me to perservere.

I wish I could kill it.

But I cant.

I wont.

It wont let me.

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Once again, my mind is being torn apart.

I need to rid myself of humanity.

But I can't do it.

I need to perservere.

But I can't do it.

It still has control. It always will.

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I still haven't figured out my connection to my ghosts.

Maybe it's because of what I am.

I need to find out.

I remember reading about various monsters back home.

Page 12 of 19

A creature with the body of a human and the skull of a deer-like creature.

Quite fitting

I can't remember the name, or much else about it.

I need to remember more. I might be on to something here.

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He manipulated me.

He pushed me over the edge, making me try and kill Nick.

He hurt Bread in unspeakable ways.

I WILL MAKE HIM PAY

I need to try and disrupt the ritual. I need to prepare.

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I know I can't go back, but I still want to.

Yet I don't.

They want me dead.

They want me to pay for what I have done.

They can try. Page 17 of 19: BLANK Page 19 of 19 - a list of similarities between Moose and a Wendigo

Wendigo

Hunger for flesh

Human body, deer-like head

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~15 ft tall

Able to use dark magics (?) Fast, strong, hunter

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It's true. I really am a monster.

I lashed out, let out all my anger, and I....